I have....but I was prone to depression. We go through a lot but are very strong during the process...I believe.
I was told by my psychiatrist that over 90 percent of transplantees have a depression at one point.
We know this passes with medication and talk therapy....It sucks...but you do get through it.
Wow, Roger! My heart goes out to you. I so appreciate your post and I hope that seeing my post was some comfort to you as it has been to others. Of course, on the day that I set out and decided to ask the question all that I was seeking was help for myself. Crying out, I guess you could say. It is very hard for me to say now that I was almost hoping for there to be others out there that was suffering with this just like me. When I was in that mind set, with so much pain and despair in my heart, I felt like please tell me that this isnt only me with this problem. Now, of course, I feel like such a bad person for feeling that way. I think maybe it was just a way to help me cope with it. Thinking Im not the only crazy person out there. But of course, there is nothing crazy about it.
I see in your words that you have come to realize that MOST people do not understand OUR situation. I guess its mainly a matter of not being ABLE to understand it. I eventually got to the point to where when someone asks questions or even seems concerned I only give very general answers and try not to go too in depth with it. The more I tell, the less they seem to understand. Maybe because it doesnt seem possible to for a human to go thru such and still be around to tell about it. Or maybe its too frightening. Which ever the reason, most just dont get it and start looking at me like, yeah right! No blame am I placing on them. It is alot to take in. Then the depression. I cant tell you how many times I have regretted even mentioning it to people. I mean to people that seem truly concerned about you. Many dont get that its a disease at all. I hear snap out of it. Well, dont feel that way, Be happy! I mean WOW! Even family have told me that. They just dont get it, if they havent experienced it. So its always easier to just not say anything. Which I believe only makes it worse. So bottomline, I DO KNOW what you mean and I understand your frustration in it. I will be adding you to my prayer list. Be thankful for everyday that God gives us. He has a plan and we are part of it. I so appreciate your story and please share on my post anytime. God Bless you and your family. P.S. Im doing so much better right now and I am so thankful to my Lord Jesus Christ . Francis
I am not a recipient, but the wife of a heart transplant recipient. So I cannot walk in your shoes, but I do empathize.
I can understand how the whole transplant process could be a catalyst for a lot of emotions, including depression. Transplants are so filled with so many challenges, obstacles, mountains to climb, whatever you want to call it, it is no easy walk in the park, and you should feel proud of yourself for having the strength to go through this difficult process and still keep fighting.
You have been through a lot, and my heart goes out to you. I read your words, that "God is good and I am still fighting the good fight", and I just want to tell you that I am blown away by your courage and your good heart. Stay strong, and even if you feel depressed sometimes, know that it won't last forever- it might feel like forever, but I promise you one day it will get better. Don't be embarrassed about your ostomy because you are more than your body you are a brave spirit, and an true example of courage to us all.